The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things i wish i didn't do
But i continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so i have to say before i go

That i just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who i used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I'm sorry that i hurt you
It's something i must live with everyday
And all the pain i put you through
I wish that i could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why i need you to hear
I found a reason for me
To change who i used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

And the reason is YOU
And the reason is YOU
And the reason is YOU

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so i have to say before i go

That i just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who i used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I found a reason to show
The side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that i do
And the reason is YOU

Heartbroken..Facing myself

We're ok now.
N we both hope all those arguement didn't exist. It's really affecting us.
Somehow it's not as easy as it seems. I'm gonna need to learn how to deal with all these problems, these emotions..
I understand good things never come easy. It won't be easy to keep him. But i still don't want to give up on everything.
I'm still slowly realising things that has to be changed. Things that are not handled properly..
I've realise i've been childish all my life, n i want to change all this. Be a different person. Be considerate.
It also seems funny, that i could be considerate with other ppl, other friends..but not with him.
Emotions can be handled really well with other ppl most of the times, but not him.
Why is this so? Probably want him to care more, coz he is mostly treating me cold as ice. And i'm used to being cared for. Or this is what a matured relationship should be like?
Maybe i should really learn that he has more important things to deal with than to treat me like a princess.
Things were really ok but i screw up again today. How many times must i do this to realise it!
I should really realise things before things happen. I really hope i could be more considerate and matured in thinking that i won go emotional on small matters.
I really want things to work out. I really hope he wants this as much as me.
I understand that he's helping me change. I really don't want to make him disappointed even more than before.

GOD please help me. I'm really praying to YOU for help now.

說好的 幸福呢

妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿 甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了

時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇 妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著 有些愛只給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著 妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得

妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢

妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿 甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了

時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇 妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著 有些愛只給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著 妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得

妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢

怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了我都還記得

妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢

If you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

Holiday? Bored!

Missing you baby~

Melaka ONE day trip

Or is it half day trip? or even less??? keke..

Anwy, the reason i went to Melaka was to submit my report. Long story behind it...and end up need to go submit it myself. But anwy, good chance to go back melaka..=) Didn't get to meet anyone though...but i still had fun wit dearie.


Waiting for dearie to fetch me..=) I spent 1 hour to makeup...what the hell is happening to me???

And the normal routine, Syiok Sendiri in his car~

After submitting my report, we went to Mahkota Parade for lunch. It was super jam at melaka tat day...n i still dunno why..

We had Seoul Garden for lunch, but it was super expensive coz it's weekends.
ok..cut the crap...here's the photos!

Even though it's a short trip, i reli enjoyed the journey wit dearie...=)

Baskin Robbins!!

I'm Soo SOooOrRy....
I'm craving for Baskin Robbins Ice Cream again!!

Ice Cream~ Ice Cream~



Finally submitted my report!
I'm finally in holiday mood le!! 2 months 2 months!

What should i do leh??

hmm...I need to get my dear his Christmas Present le...but i dunno wat i should get him...
Still need to think..=)
Any suggestions?

I'm now at home everyday, watching drama..
Currently watching this..





Very funny!
hehe...

Rainie sound really funny in this show. Not her original voice..
The way she speak is reli reli 台 lo!

But still, the show is quite nice..go watch it!!


Gtg! Gonna find my dearie for lunch ady...=)

Final Day of Internship

Finally i gone through this 6 months...Glad to know so many nice colleagues. I really thank everyone in my department for guiding me so much..

I will miss my dearie a lot..i can't accompany him to work anymore..feel so sad...but still i need to continue with life geh. I still will meet him de..=) Still have time to be together with him before i go back to Melaka. I still have my langkawi holiday with dearie..so nice!

Anwy, i felt reli sad on de last day of internship..but still ran around to take pictures with lots of colleagues...=)

yay~


Presents from Fairuz..

My very helpful colleague and good friend Nicole..

My senior Janice and I

Alin & I..


Fairuz & I..the 2 trainees of Advisors.

It was really happy working with all the colleagues from my deparment. Will really miss all of you!

I also went round to take pictures with colleagues from other deparment..=)

Suzanne n I

Kenny..

The Auditors, Yvonne and Ms Yap

Ms Yeo..


Xiao Wei


Sharon


My Dearie!! I requested to take this picture lo..coz i don hv any pictures with him in Office attire..hehehe...


N this..is Amy and my senior..Last day for Amy too...

After work, we all went to Klang, Teluk Gong for seafood farewell dinner for Amy. I had mine in the afternoon with my boss but i didn't dare to take any pictures. haha..

Choi Hoong & Janice

Janice & I


Amy & Aunty Lan

Here are the stuff we ordered...yummy! Anwy, most of the pictures of food are quite blur..coz i took it fast and didn't wanna make my friends wait for me..keke..

Vegetables..


Fried Sotong..Dearie's favourite.


Dunno wat's it called..


Fried Lala Beehoon...


CRABS!!


YamSing~ We were drinking Thoddi.


the 4 good friends

Can someone buy me Baskin Robbins ice cream?

One more week left!
One more week of working, one more week of waking up 7am in the morning, one more week of accompanying dearie to work, one more week of..................

I wonder how i feel on the final day of training. I'm actually feeling very sad to be leaving, as i have known most of the ppl in the office. I'll miss my Senior lo..and i will definitely miss Nicole a lot. And then, feel sad that i cannot accompany my dearie to work anymore.

But on the other hand, i'm also glad i manage to go through this 6 months. I have been worried for quite some time b4 the training, and feel tat 6 months is such a long time to past..but now..it feels like i just came in to this company yesterday. Lots of memories for this 6 months...happy and sad. Most importantly, i got to know lots of friends..=)

I'll be back at melaka soon. Hope my studies goes well too.

I'm going out wit dearie tmr!! Yippie!! Going for karaoke, shopping, TGI Fridays, movie (maybe?)...it's been a long time since we really went out to pak tor. So i'm reli happy lo.

Dearie is out ady for bowling with his gang. Sad that i can't join, but anwy...there's still lots of chances. Miss him lo....=(


OK OK...gtg le. Have to get my beauty sleep. Hehe...nitez world!

YOYOYOYO!

Hey yo...

I'm now currently at Setiawan, Perak.
kekeke..

Online-ing from my hotel lobby...the WiFi cant be detected in my room. How sien..

Anwy, i came here with my family, for seafood. Damn full now!



We started our journey around 9am to Klang to fetch my Aunt and Uncle.

On the way, we stop by at those roadside stalls for coconut. Yum yum!



Refreshing leh~

We reach Setiawan at about 2pm. Had lunch and went over to the beach. Nice~

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!

After that, we went to Lumut.
Did some shopping..
And took lots of pictures..here's some for viewing pleasure.

Update again when i'm back to KL!
C YA!

MISS YOU DEARIE!!!